my awakening consciousness

Angel on Four Feet

Filed under: daylilies — waterlily at 1:30 pm on Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Hey there… case anyone read yesterday’s post without reading from 2008, Tiger and Yoda were feline family members. Tiger is aka Butterscotch. He looked exactly like a very light colored little tiger except the most gorgeous light green eyes ever. Big little boy with paws the size of saucers. Claws never once came out, even if he felt threatened.

Can You Feel the Echoes?

Filed under: daylilies — waterlily at 4:14 pm on Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Been through so many eras these past seven years….soon after my last post here, my husband lost his job of twenty years and we had a rough almost two years living on one unemployment check, literally going hungry at times, but we had each other and it kept us spiritually sustained. That year our little Yoda died and we were so sad……Tiger grieved for him too, until the next year when he also died and it was brutal. It’s still agonizing to think of how terribly he died in such sweet humility – I believe he and my husband were the closest thing to angels on this earth…….and I need to tell about them both because they were here and they mattered, and the thought of the world being unaware of this is too painful to bear. In 2013, my amazing husband died of pancreatic cancer. I can’t talk about this yet, except to say that he endured with more dignity and bravery and selflessness than anyone I’ve ever known. I’ll always and forever be in awe of him.

I love you, Mark Joseph. I love you my sweet little big boy Tiger.

Your courage, your goodness, echoes across the universe.

Seven years later

Filed under: daylilies — waterlily at 6:10 pm on Sunday, January 25, 2015

Hello to any fellow human who may come upon this and continue reading! I was just playing around on the internet and found my blog, started reading (and smiling and wiping a tear or two) and now can’t resist adding more chapters to this wild ride I call my life. I just love the thought of connecting with other people this way, in addition to the wondrous freedom it is to be able to finally open up and reveal the true me in the clear light of day. To share my confusions and stumbling and missteps and gigantic boners as well as triumphs and insights and manic ramblings…….to share this wild ride we’re all on, called being human.

So very much has changed since 2008. I will be writing about this no matter what – it was medicine for me then and will be again.